12 years ago Today

   While I do not celebrate birthdays with parties and gifts for religious reasons. We respect the day of our birth and our children. As well as individuals respecting Jehovah for giving us this gracious gift of life and respecting our parents going through all the pains of giving labor and raising us to become the amazing adults we are today. 

   Today my daughter turned 12 years old. Each day not just each year I am so very thankful that Jehovah has allowed me to be her parent. Putting her life in my hands to raise and become an amazing adult. And I thank him for that. I thank him for this gift each and every day. Not a minute passes that I don't think about how close I came to losing her. How close she came to losing me 12 years ago today.

   It was a very scary day. I was very sick. She was very sick. We both had E-coli because my water broke a month to early and nobody listened to me. I spiked a fever of over 105 and my body was shutting down and swelling up from eclampsia. I gained over 60 pounds of water overnight. But not only was my body slowly shutting down so was hers. After an Emergency C-section, lots of blood loss and a long stay in the hospital we both got to go home.

   It was a very big day for us both when she got to come home. I left the hospital a week earlier before she did. Granted it turned out I should have stayed. Infection set in. A bad one. I had to be reopened and packed from the inside and heal with an opened incision to keep the infection from building back up.

   But she got to come home when this happened. I was NOT about to be put back in the hospital at all. So I healed at home. With the help with a nurse that would come daily to take my vitals and care for my incision. Soon though the Insurance would no longer pay for it. So they taught my mom how to care for me.

   It took a while, but we both recovered from this experience. And now 12 years later. Minus the fact we do have to watch her Organs, and she risks getting E-coli easier than the average person. She is really healthy.

   This day also marks another tragic situation in our family as well. While I was laying in recovery to the unknown if I was going to make it through the blood loss, high fever, a severe case of E-coli, and Eclampsia. My cousin was having surgery for a Craniopharyngioma tumor that would forever change his life and eventually took his life in March of 2011.

   Forever these life-threatening events affect our life. It was the start to my battle with MS and other medical issues. But the beauty that came from such pain and sacrifice is a beautiful amazing daughter.

   She has had to grow up fast in a world of disabilities and special needs. She has taken on much responsibility. None that could have been prevented. She has taken it on with such grace, respect, pride, and honor.

   She is funny and amazing. She makes me laugh on a daily basis. She reminds me of me and a better me. Her beauty is like no other. Exotic, natural and raw.

I am forever thankful for this young lady being in my life. And I am honored to be her mother. Thank You again Jehovah for giving me this gift to take care of. I hope I am doing everything right in your eyes to raise such an amazing child.